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Friday, May 14, 2010

Split Personality


Sometimes I think I have a split personality.

But not in the way you are thinking

Maybe its more like a split taste?

When I catch myself daydreaming of my ideal place to live, I see myself in a comfortable house, somewhere in small town USA. A dirt road leading to my garage, my wrap around porch, my garden, and of course that beat up old truck the boy would be working on. I see myself walking barefoot around my home, having a large space for a backyard, a big picnic table for entertaining guests, and two dogs. It’s a small enough town where you know your neighbors, and the people that work in the stores in town, but large enough that everyone isn’t getting into everyone else’s business. Yes, I know this sounds like something out of a movie. Its my daydream.

But in a completely opposite daydream, I see myself living in bustling NYC. Loving my 400 square foot apartment, eating out almost every night, wearing a cute coat everywhere in the cold months. Memorizing the subway routes, hailing taxis, knowing which touristy places to avoid, spending a lazy Sunday museum hopping. A place where NO ONE knows their neighbors, and certainly no one says hello on the streets. The only person you probably have a daily greeting with is the barista at YOUR Starbucks. Having rooftop parties with white lights, and martinis overlooking the city, an abundance of bars and restaurants to choose from. Designer clothes, too high heels, accessories galore. Perfect hair.

I just don’t know which one I want more. Maybe someday I can have them both. Maybe someday I’ll also win the lottery.

19 comments:

  1. Ah, that is my dream. The large lottery and NYC and a great small town. You know you could just leave an hour away from the city and it's like a whole other world. There on weekend and city during the week. It'd be a cinch after that 400 million lottery windfall.
    :-)

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  2. I understand COMPLETELY. I have the same split-dream. I LIVE in that small town, but always dream of the city life, too.
    le sigh... too bad we just can't have it all (or all win the lottery...)

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  3. I totally understand, I feel the exact same way!! The only thing I DON'T want is kind of the in between suburb-like stuff full of nothingness..

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  4. ohhh I am soo there!!! i wish i could have them both :) the best of both worlds wouldn't hurt anybody!!

    xo

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  5. Sex in the City or Little House...lol! I know, I think I would have chosen the city till I had kids....and now I think about them going off to college in ten years and I want to go back to the city so I can make all the plays and shows and NEVER do dishes again. *sigh* Everything has it's season, right?

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  6. Yeah, it's like what we really want is to live in some extreme. Cos here in the middle it's pretty dull.

    Kate x

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  7. I honestly feel the same way! I grew up in a small town and loved it for the most part. But a part of me is craving the city. It seems I always flip flop.

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  8. It's nice to know that everyone else has the same split personality. Right now I'm working in Yellowstone Park, but back home in Ohio we live in the country. I love the woods and the privacy, BUT...I don't often find people in the rural area who understand me. I fantasize that my people are in the city. At this age, though, I can't deal with the crowds and rush. We all have the Sex in the City fantasy, I guess.

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  9. aw I am the same way. Although, in Kansas City it's a little bit of both. We live a quick 15 minute drive from the middle of the city, but our neighborhood is a cute little old one right outside of it with stone houses. Everyone in my neighborhood knows one another, but when we leave to go out shopping, museum hopping etc. I rarely see anyone I know. (Except for MY barista or course!)

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  10. i totally do the same thing!!!! i imagine my life with kids and without, HOWEVER, it's a little too late for that (being that i have 2 of them).... i imagine where i'd be had i not had kids.... before i met my husband, it was just my daughter and myself and i used to see it like that, just the 2 of us (and our dog, Asia) for a long time. i saw myself as a nurse moving into our first home, just the 3 of us.... and things just turned slightly different.... it's funny where life will take you.... it's funny all the pitstops you rest in.... it's funny where you end up.... sometimes, it's nothing like you pictured it to be.... but it's still a pleasant, warm and cozy place.... =) if you win the lotto, you better not stop blogging!! =)

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  11. My struggle exactly! The more I contemplate it the more I think I CAN have both. A lovely little patch of land about an hour outside the hustle and bustle of the city. Why not? Let's not compromise...until we have to.

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  12. I'm like that too! I want to flit between a pied a terre in a big bustling city and a thatched-roof cottage in the Welsh countryside when I retire. - G

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  13. Oh yes. When we were choosing where to live and which house to live in, it was a true crisis in self-esteem!!! I understand completely!

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  14. I know that this ideal fantasy life is still some time away. But I am already dealing with one of my best friends moving out of state. If you even think of leaving, I will physically staple your butt cheeks to my living room floor. Just sayin'.

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  15. I totally know how you feel. I'm the same way. One day I say I want to move to Alaska & not have neighbors for miles & the next I want to move to the big city, lol. Maybe one day I'll make up mind :)

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  16. i totally have split personalities then... i love old brick farmhouses and little villas in france... i'm with you sista!

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  17. I always wanted the NYC dream until I landed in the country. Now I wouldn't trade the country for the city ever!! I like to visit, but it's no place to live! So maybe you could have the country dream and city vacations. That's what works for me!

    ♥Spot

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  18. Sometimes I find myself doing the exact same thing! I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one who does this.

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  19. My favorite part about this is your description of the designer coat collection for the winter months.
    I. Can. Relate.
    Also, I think I feel the same way about men. Sometimes I want the man working on the truck, and sometimes I want the rooftop terrace suited-banker serving me endless buckets of champagne.
    Go figure.
    Hi by the way

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